I decided to disclose these events. Maybe someone may relate with me about this. Maybe someone may give me an advice.

Once I read Gospel in ancient Greek (with help of a dictionary).

I translated it this way (numbers denote entries in Strong’s dictionary):

(Jn. 19:23-25) … soldiers (of celestial army) spread on couches {4757←4756←4766} who make it staying stable and insert staying near and continue safe and healthy and do not ashame staying ready in presence of others {4717←04716←2476}, they made their companions and reserved for themselves, took into their possession (somebody’s person) giving her access to themselves, took with hands (a person to use her), not rejecting but taking what is offered, His, Jesus’ garments for putting on… Also tunic (sacred clothes). But the tunic was whole from the above, North ¼ of the sky {509←507}, woven through all… And they were staying before others ready near the Jesus’ cross: mother of Jesus and a sister of the mother Maria and Klop’s wife and Maria Magdalene (raised bed) {3094←3093←heb. 4026}.

(It is something about sex, right? These women a spiritually called “Jesus’ garments”.)

Next I read:

25 But there were standing by the cross of Jesus his mother, and his mother’s sister, Mary the wife of Clopas, and Mary Magdalene. 26 Therefore when Jesus saw his mother, and the disciple whom he loved standing there, he said to his mother, “Woman, behold your son!” 27 Then he said to the disciple, “Behold, your mother!” From that hour, the disciple took her to his own home.

“Woman” can also mean “fiancee” in Greek.

I decided that “the disciple whom he loved” is now me and (thinking that I should follow Gospel as a law) proclaimed to saint Mary (mother of Jesus): “I call you mother fiancee!”

After this they happened some wonders about saint Mary. I see no necessity to describe details of the wonders. One particular wonder was that TV and radio whenever I heard them were speaking with “double meaning” (with second meaning saint Mary speaking to me).

I dreamed about saint Mary to become my fiancee. She pointed me that I not just to dream but also to masturbate.

In that time I was in hostile relations with the world, especially with Russia where I lived that time. I was going to make spirits to war against Russia possibly using nuclear weapons. So I concluded that I am a hostile man and should be stopped. But I need to make war to accomplish my mission which God has called me to, thought I. Therefore I need both to make war and not to make war. This led me to dedicate much of my time to masturbating, because it is also a commandment of God to love the woman He has given to a man; following hippie-like philosophy “it’s better to engage in love rather than in a war”. Sexually aroused Mary did many more wonders, what as I thought might be as important as my mission.

I thought that saint Mary is incarnate in Mary, a daughter of Russian president Putin. I expected that God will make us meet soon.

Then I’ve read (Mat. 22) “1 Jesus answered and spoke again in parables to them, saying, 2 “The Kingdom of Heaven is like a certain king, who made a marriage feast for his son, 3 and sent out his servants to call those who were invited to the marriage feast, but they would not come. 4 Again he sent out other servants, saying, ‘Tell those who are invited, “Behold, I have prepared my dinner. My cattle and my fatlings are killed, and all things are ready. Come to the marriage feast!”’ 5 But they made light of it, and went their ways, one to his own farm, another to his merchandise, 6 and the rest grabbed his servants, and treated them shamefully, and killed them. 7 When the king heard that, he was angry, and sent his armies, destroyed those murderers, and burned their city.”

I decided: Because I am in marriage relations with saint Mary and nobody is to congratulate our wedding, the city Perm where I live should be destroyed with nuclear weapon. This is the punishment for ignoring me. Who ignore me are murderers because ignoring me they are pushing me to death of hunger. I am for them, as if I would not exist.

I also concluded from nearby Bible verses that the nuclear war will be before the end of the autumn. I was going through the city and proclaiming my “prophecy” that the city Perl will be destroyed by an army. You know this hasn’t happened.

Now you see how Gospel was perverted by me. We cannot follow sole Gospel anymore, we need to make our own free choices about what of exracted from the Gospel is right and what should be rejected. Don’t follow every example in Bible. For example, you should not follow after the biblical example of Cain. “Woe to them! For they went in the way of Cain, and ran riotously in the error of Balaam for hire, and perished in Korah’s rebellion.” (Jud. 1:11) It signifies the end of Gospel age and starting a new age, see my book.